melissa's (:

Sunday, April 10, 2005

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i think i need to be more independent. and seriously, i must stick to my stand and NOT get stressed out by what other ppl are doing. only this way will i be able to work well and do maximum. yup, by going at my own pace and prioritising my time correctly. and yes, i have the LORD with me, so why shld i fear? :)

oh. did i mention that i cant stand hypocrites? yeah. i totally dont wanna have anything to do with ppl who are so fake. arghh. there's sch tmr and i am NOT looking forward to it. i hate my timetable cos i end past four EVERY SINGLE DAY. and my class isnt making my life any better. they can be nice, but on the other hand, they can ignore me like im some alien. i just wish i was back with scg 23/05. i miss them like CRAZY. so if your class is nice and u're so popular with your new class, dont tell me. cos im not interested and i dont wish to hear anything.

anw, i met up with val, jiemin and teresa on fri. yea. i miss them sooooo much. had dinner with them and we took neoprints. great memories man. then we had macs icecream and we just sat at macs for like almost two whole hours chatting and catching up. haha. and tree was bitching so much la. haha. oh man. i wanna see them again. love them all.

yeah. as u can see, life isnt getting on too good for me.

and i miss another person. ABRA. where are you?? i feel like crying. after reading your blog entry abt us going home tgt aft sch and trng, i felt so sad. those were the days and i miss those days. it's so weird having to be in sch without you. cos i'd always call/sms u in sch asking for ur whereabts then i'll go meet you. or vice versa. it's so terrible now that i cant do that anymore. i wanna meet up with you sometime this week. then we can talk and talk like there's no tmr. i have so much to tell you. or rather, complain abt. and u're always the first person i turn to. i feel so bad having to make u listen to me complain all the time. but, let's meet up alright? love you truckloads.

sighs. i feel so useless. i said i wanna be independent and here i am missing ppl all over again. i thot i wld be ok alone in a new environment. i thot i cld survive. HAHA. what a big fat joke. i need time. lots and lots of time.

so, to ppl who have evil intentions: SHOO. dont even try coming close to me. just get lost. i need breathing space.

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